Finally…..my suspicions are confirmed.yea, a little disappointed, but all’s fair in life. Anyway, since I suspected it for quite some time already, I should have been prepared for it rite?yea, but im human after all, sometimes... no matter how much we try to believe in something and it is true after all, it is still difficult for our heart to accept it.hmm…all I can sae now is, just hope for the best.yea!there’ll be other chances in life,its like taking on a job,u try and try at it till u get the perfect one,but even if it's perfect for u at first and ppl think ur lucky to get a job which matches u perfectly, there’s always a time when u’ll find it boring and want to try and restrt the painful and tedious process of looking for another so-called 'perfect' job. AND ,what is worse, only when u leave the previous job, will u start thinking how good that job actually was. it applies the same to what im talking abt here,abt life…and the things which affect it.. life is full of trials and errors, but in order to learn and make lesser mistakes in life,u gotta make those mistakes 1st.ppl dun learn till they experience life itself…ok,back to the 1st prt, after much linking up of small details available,I found it out by figuring it out myself!i think,I can be a detective when I grow up,maybe work in the nypd-csi kinda job.hehe,fun!can play around with details and the worst would be,i'll just make a wrong assumption and get sacked,I dun think that’s much..hehe

This blog is kinda open to public, means, anyone who can access my blog, is welcome to read it(not that I can refrain them frm doing so),therefore, I find that I have to restrict myself frm typing down my deepest darkest secret(I promise u there aren’t MUCH at this moment=p)so..i dunnoe,haha,I just feel like typing rite now,but the thing is,I dunnoe wat to type and I think the more I type,the more I crap…hating in progress….

Advice for the day:” put in effort in whatever u do and dun gif up until its OBVIOUS u haf to gif it up, cos sumtimes,just a little more persistence can help u achieve ur motive..”

1st dae,short dae....

2nd dae(todae) long breaks...ate twice,felt like a pig,even ate on nurul's behalf(nak dpt pahala punye pasal!=p)

tarian was on todae.ok.no comments,gotta practise ALOT more...

tmr 1 to 3,followed by tarian again...so,gonna be a shorty long dae(go figure)

hey sis,sorry i couldn't get u wat i promised to get for u...i noe u've been asking me for it for quite sometime,i think that uncle is out to cheat me,telling me the cheap one is not available..CRAP!...realli3 sorri hor,ill make it up to u wen u ask me for other favours next time...=)

in a daze these past few daes...haha,still in holidae mood i guess,cant believe i went to lecture and din pay a single thing in OM!ah chun and jojo lah,tok crap,den strt toking abt chemisty lesson lah and how ahchun's skool doesn't use pipette,instead,they haf to suck up 25cm cube of hydrogen something3 solution..haha,its so funni at that point of time lah..ouh yah,gotta remember to bring pencil box tmr,its the 2nd time and dae i haf forgotten to bring them,not my fault.as mentioned ABOVE,im still in holidae mood!!haha...ok then,i gotta put i\my pencil box in my bag b4 i forget again and get that 'look' from nurul...ciaoz!=)

dun bother bout the date or dae for the entries of my blog,they are totally wrong.haha...
erm..dunnoe wat to say here,ubt the keyboard im using now is kinda nice,the sound it makes is also nice..'click cluck click cluck..'haha..ok2 L-A-M-E...

skool's tmr...erm...yea..so...skool's tmr..haha

can't wait for the burfdae plans najiha and me made....haha,i wanna spend some real money..btw,toking abt real money,i realised that the american currency looks like monopoly money..so..paperish...haha...

skool's tmr...tmr skool strts...

ok,that's it.i gotta say this...i think ive eaten wae too much and now im like a balloon,but i cannot burst..aiyoooo....!!nvm,even if i cant burst,i hope i can shrink like,SOON..?

ok then..got this advice frm the ustazah wen i attended madrasah just now...

advice for the dae:'God made everything for a reason...EVERYTHING,even the smallest ting in this world..so be thankful with what u have!'=)

went to eat at harbour front's coffee shop yesterday nite after werk with tina,lenny and marvin.that's why,i woke up with a stomach ache in the morning and as a result,my plans to go to school were cancelled...haiz..hmm,but strangely,i felt better once i ate my mom's cooking.ahah!so,the moral of the story is....mother's cooking is the best!(not that we dun already noe that=p)

i just realised something,nuthing interesting has happened to me so far since i've started werking,there's like nuthing to look forward to each day,unlike in the past,where there's always something to look forward to,but at that time,i was lazy to carry out those interesting stuff.ouh yah,there is actually one thing i can look forward to,actually 2 things. 1stly,it's pay!ok2,no work talk here animore...next...errrr..................................................sc...sch....school...?yea,i noe it sounds boring,"fattanah!school???OMG!"but i have a different reason for wanting to go to skool,and i believe i have already talked about them in one of my previous entries.

new topic now...im glad i have not seen ghosts before.haha,dunnoe why suddenly felt like talking about this,lol.but evertime i go home late at night,i will look at trees and suddenly think of them.NO,i dun want to see them,but i wonder how those who see them actualli feel.do they freeze in their path or scream and run away..or wat?wat happens if,IF,i were to see them?hmm..i dunnoe leh,cos i think im more scared of cats than i am of ghosts.hahahha!aniwae,just to emphasize again,I DUN LOOK FORWARD TO SEE GHOSTS.ok,i think i have made my point clear.so,now i can...end my entry!hahah,l-a-m-e...

advice for the day:"a motivated mind is the source of an energetic attitude"=D

ok,now then i noe the meaning of tired.it is when u just cannot do anything else except sleep,and when u are awake,u can just sit,and stare,and when people talk to u,u either just stare at them as if they r some alien who have invaded ur room,or,u reply something back which has got totally nuthing to do with what they are talking about...ouh yah,and u only think of 1 thing,and at that point/period of time,that is the most important and precious thing in ur life,which is....sleep..haha..

ok,im exagerrating,but that is wat im feeling rite now,so,im telling the truth after all...it has been a tiring week,but also nice at the same time,wait can it be bad and good at the same time?(u understand wat im talking abt so far?,nvm=p).lenny's 1st dae of work was yesterdae,fun to work wif her,i thought she'll be stuck up or sth and was worried how am i supposed to work along with her,but turns out,i felt comfortable talking to her and think she's fun!went home with her too and hopefully,we'll have good conversations again the next time we werk together,which is...yea..tommorrow(note,there's a hint of dread there..but note again,its dread to werk,not the meeting lenny part=))

school's gonna start like in less than a week and i can't wait,miss all my friends,and i wanna see what new modules will i be taking,although most probably i'll be struggling through them again,hope there wun be many projects,they are time consuming,not that im not already busy enuff,huuuh!..=I

ok,so that's it i guess,the end of my entry for now(wow,fattanah,so proud to end ur entry huh?L-O-L).i dunnoe when will be the next time i'll update,but hopefully it'll be soon,anyway,have a nice dae,all of u,yes,ALL of you..=))

advice for the day:''enjoy what u do,even if they are unpleasant,cos,when u enjoy,u will put in much more effort and the results would be better!"

yesterdae was my 1st dae...not bad for a first dae,they said im fast to be doing other jobs today,cos,a guy had to do dining for 4-5 daes b4 he was allowed to do beverage,for me(ahem ahem) i did beverage on the 2nd dae.was kinda confusing,but its even more confusing to hear the orders,cos some of their accents are like so..thick.haha..aniwae,it was nice cos the ppl there and nice,and most important of all,the manager is nice,wen he wants me to do my werk quickly,he asks me in more of a favour kind of way,rather than an order,which i think is good..=)
ok,the bad side,its tiring,but i still like lah,i dunno y,though the journey to and from werk is also kinda long,but i guess,once i get the hang of it,it'll be ok..ok then,i wanna go and take a rest,tmr another day of full shift..sigh,but,oookkk lah,for the money's sake,nyahahhaha..;p

advice for the day:"dun let ur status get the better of u,treat everyone the same,everyone ha their own human rights.."...=)

ok2 i noe i noe,its been quite some time since i've blogged.Been quite busy lately,but i'll explain now...hehe

Monday:went to interview at delifrance at sentosa with zainab(she accompanied me),then after that i went to eat with her at banquet and we kinda gossipped alot..LOL
took lotsa pics with stupid poses and cute ones too(cute,cuming frm zai,stupid cums frm,as usual,me=)) hey zai,watever happens,just cheer up kaes?always look on the bright side of life...(ok,that is copyrighted frm a song,i noe i noe).

Tuesday:Went for MCC meeting.wow,had to carry like 4 ring files in my bag,and another 5 more in a plastic bag and ALSO,my lappie..ok2,try to imagine carrying all that,i made a fool out of myself dragging all those stuff,but i couldn't care less!nyahahah!alot happened,helped farhanah do something to her pants,shal not sae wat,but it used up alot of my energy.hehehe
ok2,we wanted to draw out money after that,but,onli can draw out 50 bucks,and guess wat?both of us do not haf 50 bucks in our account..poorrr usss..lol
went for tarian next,i think after the practice,i can build more muscles,cos we had to carry 'dulang' as our props,and please hor,even if it may be light at 1st,after carrying or rather balancing on our palms like waitresses,for sometime,ur hand'll start cramping man!aniwae,we wun just be carrying the dulang,they r planning to put a bowl filled with flowers on top of it ok..huuh!=) but still,the practice was ok,no casualties or watsoever..lol

Wednesday(today):Woke up with a flu,but was ok except for alittle cough here and there,went to skool to do a proposal and to make use of the internet connection there as you all should haf known or guessed by now,my home's internet connection sucks big time!ok,went home ard 6 and now im trying to complete my proposal,so,bye for now!!=)

went to sentosa's delifrance today for a job interview.It was ok.The interviewee asked me so many questions and I was like stumbling and slurring on my words,its like my toungue suddenly just refused to work.But as the time went by,i slowly got the hang of it and soon,i found myslef talking like nobody's business..ahah!!

so..yea..i got the job..so...yea..i got the job,err,did i just repeat that?ok2, just 1 more time ok?hmm...I GOT THE JOB..i hope i do not disappoint the ppl there and i realli got to thank both nurul and zainab...nurul,cos she was the one who recommended me this job and actualli accompanied me till the bustop...thanx aloootttt man!!=))....zainab,cos she accompanied me despite facing some difficulties in the beginning..yea,the 2 hr wait was worth it..haha,u noe,i noe..*winks*

had a great dae today.after the interview,went to harbour front centre to grab a bite,and zainab and i was taking pictures after pictures of both of us..i noe inoe,u all will go,"eeww,soo vaaiinn"..haha,well,guess wat? I DON'T CARE!hehe...ok that's all,just happi and thankful that i got a job..hmm..chiaoz for now then,im sleeppyy and dead tirreeddd....bobye!!=)

trust is a very short and simple word to remember and say,however,it is not something that you can gain just like that...Once u have gained that trust from a person,you'll feel so...appreciated,as if all their secrets,only u noe,however,once it has been misused,the outcome would be terrible,sometimes, so terrible that all ties could be severed between you and that person,but even if that doesn't happen,you have to go through the painful and difficult process of gaining that trust back.

for me,its not too difficult to trust people,just be more williing to share ur thoughts with me,and if i am comfortable being with you,i may just haf trust in you and confide in you,however,i'm still reluctant,or rather,should i say,hesitant, when it comes to trusting guys.....

hey,dun think i'm sexist or wad,cos i'm not,but maybe,its just the way they tend to be less sensitive and are more emotionally and physically aggressive that i tend to keep to myself when interacting with them...hmm,i wonder when i'll meet the guy whom i can trust wholeheartedly,whom i can share all my secrets and woes with..i guess,it's just a matter of time before i find one...

GOD has a reason for fixing us the way we are.I guess,if we r all the same and are pleasant and flawless throughout,life would be a very boring place to live in...furthermore,we learn more ,about ourselves if we see and meet different people with different charaters rather than those of our own 'kind'...
lots of questions
more doubts
but,those are life's mysteries
meant to remain unsolved....

chiaoz for now everyone..think deep,but,dun 'drown' in ur thoughts...=)))))

im tired..reeaallyyy tired....i went out with najiha just now.Actually,i was supposed to go out with another friend of my,but the very very last minute,she cancelled,so,i asked najiha out!hehe..
so,we went to marina square cos najiha really wanted to go there,i dunnoe why,but it was huge lah,i mean the place.It was so enormous,humongous,big,huge,and all,that we dunnoe where to strt off..but,eventually,we made it around the whole mall...so many things to see!nice!!

hmm..then we grabbed a bite and continued our window shopping and then we left the place...i had to buy files after that,so rite after that,we went home.that is how the dae was spent.and rite now im tired..reallllyyyy reallyyy tired...so,sorri for the crap just now,bye for now,continue for later....=))

in skool rite now...was planninng to do the IS ranking stuff at nurul's house,then last minute she said that she feels insecured about her internet connection,so she suggested going to skool instead to do it,so here i am!!

hmm..not doing much,i can't believe i slept alot yesterdae.i went to play badminton with hasinah and luqman and it was ok.accompanied hasinah all the wae to limbang and after going to mac,i walked back home...slept frm 2 all the wae to 5...haha,went online den slept all the wae frm 12 to 9am th enext morning..wait..y am i saying all this?err...ok2,scrap all those out.im too lazy to delete them by myself..haha,ok2 here comes the crap..sheesh...=p

advice for the day: "to be a true singaporean, be kiasu and kanchongg!!"=)
ps:lame,i noe...haha...

went to tarian just now...abang Im wasn't there..thank god(oops).haha...so,we learnt the basics,err,i think i forgot wat it's called.nevermind..hmm,im not getting any better at it,but i'm trying.hopefully i can make it in the end...
i dunnoe what i did,but my thigh muscles feels strained.ouch lah..ok2,i think im too tired to talk any sense now,gonna get some sleep.ouh yah,before that, we finally met this new waheeda aka ydah.she's nice,seriously and quite helpful too.jovial i can sae..ok2,i 'm too tired now.got to go..bye!!=)

went out to celebrate farihah's birthday just now.Erm Najiha and I treated her to Bagus and we had yong tau foo,chicken chop noodle and carrot cake respectively...then,we decided to walk about,but there wasn't anything there,so,we went to Jurong Point to walk about.Hmm,alot of people,as usual,but it was ok.Had fun with those two great buddies...went window shopping and they(especially farihah=p)were criticizing my lack of style,not my fault,this is what happens when you shop too much with your mom ..haha...

After walking summore,we went to coffee bean(or was it starbucks guys?=p) and each ordered their own drink,shoot!this reminds me,i forgot to pay najiha for the drink!erm...lol..ANIWAY, farihah was like asking me to tell najiha what happened at the trip to changi airport that day,with darran and jojo.mournfully,i narrated what happened,and good old najiha and farihah had to laugh at them,i was feeling terrorized ok,those weren't joookkeesss...haha,but now that i thought about it,i think it was kinda funny,at least A LITTLE.ahha..

strange,after drinking and laughing hard,i felt like vomitting and so was najiha,and then we felt sleepy..weirrdd...farihah?how r u feeling??=P

aniway,it had been a nice day and rite now i feel so lethargic,seriously! and there's this guy at my house i dunnoe wats his purpose of cuming and i can't walk freely in my house because of him...to visitor:can u do me a favour please?go hoommee!!!i wanna run about in my house nowww!!haha...so,unnice of me,as usual..
ok2,i dunnoe what they put in that drink of mine,i feel 'high'...najiha nvr tried coffee bean and farihah never tried starbucks and,i realised i've been to both without actualli noeing,cos i've gone out with both of them on separate occasions..haha,i noe i noe,lamelah fattanah,but,what the heck!=P
gosh,i think i've crapped too much,now im positive they put something inside my drink!ouuh,its spiked!ok2,i'll stop.bye for now!=)

advice for the day:"there's a limit to everything,do anything u want,BUT dun.ever.go.beyond.the limit.."=D

i have a lot on my mind today,no...ESPECIALLY today...Some good,some bad..but i just dunnoe how or what to type down.So,i think i'll just leave them in my mind,onli the ones describable,will be shared here.

went to madrasah again,as usual,enjoyed it as usual,but a little sleepy though,probably because i came back late the day before after a game of badminton...it was realli a late badminton game,at 9pm..haha,new experience i guess...finished at 10pm and then walked all the wae to lot 1 to wait for a fren's mom,before taking the bus back home.i noe,sounds stupid to be travelling to and fro at night,but,like i said it was a new experience and,i enjoyed it.haha..
a little disappointed cos a friend was alittle too outright,i should sae.she said that a friend of mine is lame...i mean,the person is my friend,and that person has to sae that to me?hur hur..yea2,its ok,her opinion i guess..
my sisters are fighting alot these days and sumhow,i'm usualli brought in.I dun noe how,1 minute they are argueing among themselves,the next,i am argueing ALOng with them.and the worst part is,im alwaes against either one of them.klau tk si kakak,i will be siding my kid sis,which is kinda...i dunnoe...lol.

anyway,just now i have been sleeping on and off.like,asleep,then awake,den,half asleep,then,totally asleep and then wide awake and asleep again,i oso dunnoe how's that possible,but,i did it...kwang kwang kwang...
i noe its lame to haf a serious entry and then haf a 'lol' or a 'haha' or a 'kwang3' after it,but i dun want to make this entry sound too...sad?ooouuhh,that's soooo not me!

ok,i think i'll go back to my normal self now..erm now that im normal,i've got nuthing to sae,cos,i've said all i wanted to sae when i wasn't normal earlier on!lol!!...there are still some stuffs on my mind,not too complicated ones i hope,but there are,those that haf no words to explain,so,since i can do nuthing about them now,i think i'll end my entry with a GOODBYE!!!!=D

advice for the day:haha,today no advice lah friend,so..wait for the next entry lah,ok?haha!!=p