hmm,felt better today,sorry guys,for that entry yesterdae,dunno what happened to me.hahah!!!
ok,now that i'm back to my normal self,just wanna update on my dae....
feels sooo nice to clean up the house.Woke up late,ard 8,but still managed to get things done...hur hur,din intend to clean the house up,but looking at its condition,i changed my mind..haha..

ouh,i also forgot it is april fool's day today,ok this is lame but..HAPPI APRIL FOOL'S DAE!!!wakakka...=p

ok,dats all im gonna sae,gonna continue reading my book..now i noe why i dun enjoy reading as much as before,cos i've not been paying attention to the words cos i'm always thinking about some thing or another.but the last 2 daes,ive been indulging myself in a novel im reading and i found it really interesting topped with its funny bits and all.too bad i din really pay attention from the start of the novel cos,like i said,i onli really started concentrating on reading 2 days ago.erm..i did sae i'm going off right?omg!and..i'm still here.ahaks!!ok2,i'm realli going off this time,but as always,i will leave an advice/quote originally from me,ok?peace...=)

advice for the day:"never have an argument online,talk it out with the person,that's the best way to handle it..."

messed up..






difficult to trust people nowadays......stay strong though..


haha,just emo me....i'll get over it soon.lol...=I


advice for the day:"dun cheat on others,u wouldn't want to be cheated too,do you...?"

didn't expect to go out today.I cleaned up the whole house today,prepared my own brunch,and......hasinah called me to go to the LIBRARY with her.I was unwilling at first,cos i just went to the library a few days ago,but since i had nuthing on,and books are one of the ways to console me of my boredom,i decided to accompany her.

we decided to go to jurong's library at first,but,she said there were some vcd sale at bukit panjang plaza and wanted to see them.So,being a good friend,i decided to go along...there was a sale,and like she mentioned,there were cds and vcds selling as cheap as 3 bucks,but she forgot to mention that those 3 bucks ones are just CHINESE vcds or OLD movies,like reaaaaalllyy reaalllyy old movies..lol..

finally,we did go to the library,and after like 10 to 15 minutes there,she lent some books and we...went off(frm the library)..it was damn fast,when actually,our main intention of going there was to go to the library..haiz..sinah siinah...haha..

erm..i kinda felt guilty but contented at the same time,cos i bought 2 pairs of earrings and ate at swensens...ouh ouh ouh!now cums the best part,the SWENSENS part..hehehhe...

Went there and din expect to eat anything heavy...dialogue between me and hasinah...
me:hey,wat r u getting?i think i wanna eat pasta.
sinah:erm..i'll take fish and chips.My frens sae its nicer here and the serving is also quite alot..
me:really?ok,since its alot,i'll take fish and chips too,more worth it...
the conversation ended with us having fish and chips..and wat sinah said is true lah,i ate and ate....and ate..and finally,after like what seem to be a decade,i FINALLY finished it.meanwhile,she din finish everything(oorrrhh,tell ur mother!=P).ouh yah,up till now,i'm still wondering how we managed to fit in ice-cream after that.haha!

SINCE we ate alot(it was ALOT,seriously..),we decided to walk all the way to teck whye.haha,walk and walk and walk and after that,i was left alone to wait for 307 at the bustop.since i just missed it,i had to wait for a whole 1/2 hour before the bus came,i almost fell asleep at the bustop.haha...

All in all.it had been one of the best dae ever..errrrrrr,thanxhasinah..yep,if i have more money,i would love to do that again(minus the eating too much part),my stomach still feels sore,and like wat dear hasinah said,"my stomach just burst and it is restructuring again".gosh.u crap.haha!=)

advice for the day:"do things that make you happy,cos,happyness,just like sadness,dun last long.."

hmm..went to MCC's springcleaning thingey today..well..all i can say is that,the effect of cleaning up is taking place now,cos my leg is aaaaccchinggg!!haha....BUT,i must say it had been a fun time for me cos i enjoyed being wif those ppl..('those ppl', refers to the main comm who came today=>)ANIWAE,we cleaned up the whoooollleee room,and rearranged some of the furnitures there.hmm sorri,too tired to go into the details now,aniwae,that was wat we did practically the whole morning all the way to the evening...hmm,nice getting to noe the gurls especially,cos i tend to talk more to them(im straight,before u think of anithing else)LOL...aniwae,quite satisfied with the final product and hope the room can be as clean as now,for quite some time after that...hiak hiak..sayonara!!=)

quote for the day:"if u put in ur best to accomplish something,the product will be better than if u do it half-heartedly..however,if u try and it still fails,dun.ever.let.frust.get.in.your.way..."

finally,i had the satisfaction of treating my sis to a meal..been bugging me since i told her of my 'plans' to do so..haha..
went to madrasah today,and both ustazah's were talking about the 4 sifat of nabi and all..i think ending your madrasah education at a young age,may be a thing to be proud of,people will go,"wah,so young,but dah habis madrasah",HOWEVER,i realise that,those youngsters tend to spend time with less 'educational' activities,now that they have completed their classes and are not intending to continue with other weekly classes.as a result,they were led astray,and that make them to become a worse person than before,cos most of the teachings they learnt in the madrasah they used to attend,have most probably been forgotten...so i think,there are benefits of finishing madrasah at a later age.like me,i do bad things without realising it at times,but each week,when my ustazah tells us about them,i feel guilty,and that spurred me to change for the better...

that was some self confession...aniwae,back to my day today..went to causeway point,had lunch with my sis after which,we did some window-shopping.but it didn't last for long,cos my sis started walking like a lame person cos,her shoe bit her..LOL..aniwae,we did went to the library and borrowed some books,before making our way home...so,that's it.yep,that's my day..erm...bye..?haha..

quote for the day:"learn new things,but never ever forget the old and more significant ones at the same time.."

went to play badminton with Hasinah today.It was quite ok,she played like a pro,haha,the first few times,she played sleepily,then,as the time went by,all the smacks started coming from her and I found myself running around the court.She also tauaght me a few techniques like how to serve and hit far with the racquet,which was kinda useful,infact,i think it IS very useful,i'll bear al that she said for future games...hehe..ouh yah,she played so 'well',my badminton racquet's string actually snapped..cool..lol
ok2,gtg for now,i'll come back later to update..hahhah!!=D

went to sri warisan with the mcc peeps today...hmm..it was an interesting trip,cos i did learn a few things and we did quite a few activities(which i did not participate in most of them) and,although its one of those trips where i went without nurul as my 'spokesperson', i did evetually talk with the people there....ok,a summary of how the day went.

met up with tina at 12.30+ at the bustop,before we proceeded to another bustop to take a bus to another bustop near BPP to wait for rahim and illya.we(tina and i) reached the bustop early,and had to wait for quite awhile for the other 2,then,they decided to mit at another bustop,so,tina and i took another bus,where we reserved 2 extra seats for them...
when we reached little india station, we waited(again) for the rest at the control stn,where we met ayie,nora,idris ,yanie and ain.it was 2 by then,and half the group were still not there,so we got out of the mrt stn,and continued to wait for the rest.When finally all came,we continued our journey to sri warisan(fiiiinnaaalllyyy)..it was nice as i chatted to yanie and sometimes to the rest..so,after the whole thing,some of us went back while the rest went on to have lunch...so,that was my day and an interesting one i think...haha,ok,gotta do some stuff,till next time,chiaozzzz!=)

oops,1 point to take note of: "if ur efforts proved to be worthless,treat it like a lesson learnt and not insult it as if that's the worse that could happen"

hmm..went out today,shall not mention where,but 1 place would be changi airport.lol...me,jojo and darran went there for,dunnoe wat lah,we walked...and walked....and walked...and....walked summore,until my legs tire out.But i have to admit with those two monkeys ard,my 'journey' around the airport was made much more interesting and fun.haha...saw all those tall,skinny air stewardess.my,they are pretty and...white..haha.
i was so tired,i slept in the train on the way home,and even when i woke up to switch trains,i think my brain was still in sleeping mode,but thank god,it woke up immediately when i reached home.
Im proud of myself,cos i didn't spend much today...hmm..

haiz...some things come unexpectedly...like,we may think we noe that person alot,but some things are just too private to be disclosed,even to those who are close to us.This may seem alittle confusing,cos,i think im just typing out wat im really thinking,so,it may not be understandable.
erm..but watever it is,i hope that....nvm,i dunno wat to hope,im kinda feeling neutral abt all this stuff,so,no prob to me.huh..tiring day today,and tmr would be another new day,i hope a pleasant one too.aniwae,gotta get back to my reading,my books are gonna be due soon,and i dunnoe y i just can't finish them up.fattttaaannnnnaaaahhh!!!!read!read!read!...crap...=D

just felt like posting a pic..lolz

yesterdae was a normal dae.So was the dae before.and 2 daes ago...hmm..but,i think i might just get a little busier as the time goes by..ouh yah!my results are gonna be out real soon,damn,im so scared of it...
lately,i haf been having dreams,not good ones,but neither are they a nightmare to me...but,the thing is,i remember them even after i wake up,lol,a dream should never be brought to real life,AFTER ALL,it is a dream,it is supposed to be reserved onli at night time when you'll most probably be asleep...never mind,i think its just one of the phases i go through when i'm nervous...(abt wat?god knows...)...
i think i wanna bake something..anything,provided i do it without anybody's help,and that includes my mom.Maybe a cake or cookies,or maybe,just maeb...i'll learn how to cook!ERK,nah,bad idea,never learn how to cook, ESPECIALLY frm my mom,she'll be screaming at me most of the time..yea2,i agree,bad idea.
gosh,i think i got nuthing to do now..wat do u expect,its 12:58 am,and im still not sleepy...
ok,nvm,i'll read a book or sth,rather than crap....bye.

went to MCC meeting just now.It wasn't really a meeting,just some admin stuff I had to do,now that I'm the newly elected secretary...hmm..it was ok,then we went for an interview,it was an interview or ,rather should I sae,our opinions on certain issues regarding singapore,right from the small things like what I like about Singapore,to how the recent events like the 911 has affected my life and surroundings.It was quite nice,until,i strted shiverig cos the room got so cold,i couldn't even concentrate on what they were asking.
After the whole interview thingey was over(which was abt 2+ hrs later), I got home and had to get ready for my bursary ceremony,hah,but I was late,so I could not register my name in,and therefore,had to wait till the whole thing was over b4 receiving my cheque.Not bad,300 bucks to myself(actualli not ALL of it to myself),lol...
ANIWAE...it has been quite a day for me,tmr gging jogging with rafidah at 7+ in the morn,hope i can get up in time...lol...and i think im starting to crap again...man!these daes ive been crapping alot,i see,i think the brain has got nuthing to do,so all the excess brain power has to be channeled some other wae,but since it cannot find other ways,it has to go thru my mouth,which then turns it all into...CRAP...gosh,i think im gging overboard now.im going to stop.NOW.

today is a healthy day for me..i went jogging at ard 6+am,then went home to get ready to play badminton wif ah chun...the badminton game strted off wif a series of giggles(frm me),and lameties(frm ah chun),lol.it was difficult at first to play,dunnoe why,but soon after that,we got the hang of it and we were even chatting as we play!i was very amused by wei chun's STANDARD of serving...but its ok..beginner,beginner(like wat she said)..lolz..aniway,din expect to hold a conversation whille playing badminton with her and really enjoyed my time...erm,i hope i can play again,THIS TIME,i hope its SOMEWHERE NEAR...haha..ok,im kinda tired and sleepy right now...so,yea,rest my eyes,gotta get some beauty sleeepp....chiaoz!!=)

yep,u noticed it(i hope). My blogskin has been changed...y dat skin of all skins? hmm..cos,i loove chocolates,no doubt,wen consumed in excess,it does make u feel like puking,but if u haf it once in a while,mmmmmm...ooouuh,i can taste it in my mouth now,and its not those cheap chocolates im talking about here,those kinds taste kinda wierd,im talking about the more well'known ones like ferrero....yuumm..
aniwae,today,i din do much.In fact,wat was i doing the whole day,god knows.But i did some yoga,and it was a very refreshing excercise,although i must say,some of the stretches are excruciating after u o it for quite some time,especially for me,cos it ws my 1st time doing so.haha
i gotta finish up reading my library books man,the due date is soon,but i still haf not completed even a book.I wonder what i have been doing all this while...hmmm..
im kinda bored now,so i think i'd better go now and jump about some more,i haf been doing that alot recently,maybe,my monkey genes are finally showing through me??haha,crap,ok then,buaiz...=P

im kinda bored now...wait wait,let me REPHRASE that,im physically not doing much right now..yea, i have work to do(do i?) but im trying to pretend that i don't have any.haha..anyway,the past few days,I've been a very good kid.I clean up the house(and also order my sis to do the same),erm..help out as much as possible and i try to keep out of my mom's sight,cos,i dunnoe,whenever she sees me,(WHENEVER,pls note that),she always haf some kind of jobs for me to do..its like.."fattanah,help me to..","fattanah,go and do..","fattanah,listen to me,i want you to firstly..." and blah blah blah,but surprisingly,i did watever she asks me to do!something surprising to me!haaha...
ok,just some thinking put into words...
In life,you will get to meet many people.some are short,some are tall,there would definitely be thin ones as well as ehem2,more plum ones,but everyone is still a human being and therefore,deserve some respect of somme kind ,so,please respect people for who they are cos,people as a matter of fact are resistant to changes,therefore,asking them to change,be it for the worse,or for the better, would be a very difficult and challenging thing to do.so,please be mindful of ur words and actions,cos it may hurt people unnecessarily...
err,i dunnoe wat was that all about,seriously! sheesh! there i go crapping again,but i guess,those words above serves as an advice,to all imperfect human beings out there,which of course,includes..me!haha..ok,gtg(go where?i oso dunnoe)...WAAAIIT!!i just rmbred something,i had a dream last night ,and i dreamt that i got an E for every subject except for physics,where i got an A for that!ahhaha,to think that i never got more than a C for physics all my secondary school life,and YES,i dun take physics anymore,so what was that dream all about, scare me for nuthing...but it did scare me quite abit,considering i got E for poa,and bmgt..huuh,hope it doesn't come true man...pray...pray...pray...pray...pray...

i was just abt to type that todae was a boring dae and all,wen my elder sis suddenly said, "fattanah,there's a letter for u".dreading it,cos i thot it was some bill or insurance thingey,i just walked towards it.There lying on the table like wat my sis said,was a letter addressed to mi.and,to my surprise,wen i opened it,it was a letter congratulating me cos my application for a bursary was successful.man,was i so happy!but remebering wat my mom said earlier,she said the money shld be kept wif my dad for future educational use..haiz,i nid that extra cash...maeb she'd be kind enuff to spare me some??haha,fat hope.lol
aniwae,today,is less than a week since my last skooling dae, and already im feeling kinda bored.im tired and i try to help out as much at home as possible.i find myself useless cos i cant even secure a job and onli add burden to my family by not helping out,so im gonna try my best to help my poor mom out.
tmr im gonna try and find a job.meena and me are planning to koll up first,before we set out to find the jobs available.i hope i can secure one,and get a GOOD management who doesn't go back on his/her WORDS..haha,ok then,me gtg,i seriously dunnoe wat to do now,sleep is not an option as im too tired of doing just that,and the internet is not good at entertaining me either..so,i think i'll just sign off here and get a good book to read.OUH YAH!good idea!maeb i'll go to the library tmr!yea,better drag meena along.hahas..ok.see u!buaiz!!!

some ppl are irresponsible...DAMN irresponsible at times...ppl dun like to wait,dats a general fact,but yet,some IRRESPONSIBLE ppl still make others wait..im not toking about waiting for a meeting or ani of that kind,i mean,...haiz..
im supposed to strt werk todae,well that was the agreement initially,the manager even told me she wld msg me the time and all b4 todae..and guess wad?she din,my fren who just got the job at the SAME branch was already confirmed of the time and all,and i dun even noe mine,when,supposedly i got the job FIRST.how irritating could that be.yesterdae,i was like,smsing her and giving her missed kols the whole dae,and she onli replyed at night saeing that she's been bz wif stock taking and that she wld tell me SOON.i wonder how soon is 'soon' to her.............
i am very angry,its spoiling my mood so much...so much that i dun even haf the appetite tO eat and just feeling like wanting to curl up and disappear...sucks,nvm,if i dun get the job,ill just stay and home and rot my wae there.atleast i wun feel so bullied and cheated.....
as a manager,u have to haf the responsibility factor and be PROFESSIONAL,if u can't even handle stuffs like this,how are u ever gonna handle bigger responsibilities??
luckily i took business management in skool,at least i noe how a manger has to behave,and wen i become one,ill make sure i wun do this to ppl and cause unnecessary hatred in ppl.SUCKS MAN!!